so i'm officially back in beantown...bittersweet feelings about this as usual. but in 5 weeks i will officially be done with my freshman year of college. yee boi!
spring break was great and highly needed. it's already been established that I'm a day dreamer and am constantly dozing off to la-la land. i did get to do a lot of thinking/ reflecting this break. instead of going out alot, i actually stayed home most of the time....believe it or not! i thought about old friendships versus new ones, old crushes/ flings versus current ones, past and previous relationships, blah de blah...
a couple of you know that i've been on an emotional rollercoaster these past couple months and an unexplainable feeling of depression likes to come and bug me every once in a while. don't ask why because I really can't tell you, i wish i was able to.
everyone talks about college and how it helps you find yourself or whatever. i feel like i found myself a long time ago and college hasn't changed me a bit, minus the whole emotional part. but then i got to thinking...maybe i've been so sad because instead of "finding myself", i've began to lose the self i found awhile ago with every friendship I've let slip away or every relationship I turned my back to. Like where did the easy-going, always happy, go with the flow me disappear to? I feel like now I sit here and over analyze things waaaay more than i should and let little things get to me...i've even been told this by a couple friends. but who knows if this is even really the problem, as of now I can say I'm ready for summer.
stay tuned.
A relaxing weekend quickly fades into the distant past on this busy day. It may be challenging to keep up with all that's going on now, but you'll just have to grit your teeth and do what you must. Although you may resist at first, you could actually be inspired once you find a creative voice that's in touch with your hopes and dreams.
